00. The Fool

I have always been fascinated with tarot.  I bought my first set of cards at twelve and since have collected an array of decks.  Unlike many, I never associated myself with the Fool of tarot.  A sufferer of Major Depressive Disorder, and possibly Borderline Personality Disorder, seeing the sheer amount of potential in myself was impossible.  I was not part of a journey, but simply in a series of moments, some intense, some in which I felt nothing.  Things happened to me, I did not make things happen.

Less than a month ago my disorders caught up with me, and I attempted suicide.  I have since been in a psychiatric ward as well as intense therapy; newly discharged, and in a much better place for the first time since I was a child, I am just now realizing the unbridled potential in this world, and in myself.  Like the tarot card Fool, I am experiencing a new beginning and starting on a journey, one that is mental, physical, and spiritual.  This blog is my attempt at recording my journey of discovery and sharing it with anyone who might be interested, as well as showcasing my creative endeavors.

For many years I have hidden myself from the light, and now I see the light inside myself.  So, like the Fool, I  begin to take first steps out of the darkness.